i am a horrible friend, and i am aware of this; i ignore messages, i barely reach out, i do not open up about my feelings or experiences, i do not know how to comfort, react to their pain or empathise with them; i am avoidant and push them away.. just to whine about it later
it’s actually so impossible to explain the lengths of what pain could actually feel like if you’ve never felt something like that before you genuinely cannot imagine what it feels like you always think you’ve felt the peak but My God bro