it's just that there's no one to support me. i don't have many friends, one of them doesn't really want to talk to me or anyone else, the other one doesn't know how to support people (that's a quote). i am indeed alone here and i don't know what to do and how to feel
im sitting here sick and tired thinking about how im once again hating on myself and doubting myself by comparing me to people around with no good reason
university education in this country is pointless and it drives me crazy, cause im sitting here writing a paper that no one will even read except maybe my scientific supervisor *screams*
idk what i should or shouldn't do, it's slowly getting worse, going back to its old depressive state. i can't help, my support doesn't really reach. i am concerned, but at the same time isolated. i can't imagine what's really going on, and it makes me incredibly sad.