stress is good and bad... bad bc im stressed about my life and scared for my future... good because i have no appetite and havent eaten anything other than an oreo in 3 days π
how you gonna call yourself a dom when you dont have enough self discipline to send at least 1 text per day to a girl you supposedly like and have been dating for 6 months
i feel so fucking stupid. this dude admitted im asking for less than the bare minimum and yet he cant even do that. it makes me feel so worthless. every relationship ive been in had turned out like this. they show extreme interest and consistency in the beginning, then this
my brain is like a computer. always processing and analyzing data. running a million programs at once. it never stops. i overthink and overanalyze everything and i wish i could just... feel peace for once in my life
basically i saw for myself that cheating / betrayal is something you only do if you truly lack morals. it's a character flaw, not a "mistake." it's an active choice you make because you see nothing wrong with it.
you know whats crazy.... when i was in a situationship, the guy said he was exclusively intimate with me and expected the same from me. but wouldnt define what we were doing. i wanted so badly to just go bang other dudes, but my morals simply wouldnt allow me to.
oh and the craziest part about my last relationship -- it never officially ended. he just never responded to a text i sent and i just downloaded a dating app and moved on LMFAO