Red

[Red @igothepop]

Tbh, i do get jealous with people achievement
Sometimes i even judge them, started to blame the world etc

I guess, maybe im not trying hard enough, or wasn’t good with luck

[Red @igothepop]

I havent post anything in ig, completely ghost from people

I choose that way,

I choosed a path that I deserved, it’s punishing me

[Red @igothepop]

Guess what, 4 years degree

Was absolute dogshit

Dont be suprise, cuz i had never ever enjoyed my degree life

[Red @igothepop]

Tonight dinner says it all,

1. Have no one other than shitty friends pic
2. How lonely i am
3. Having shitty friend who keep complaining shit
4. Emotionally numbness

[Red @igothepop]

4 years in degree life i wasted alot

[Red @igothepop]

For whole my life,

People hate me for no reason
I victimised myself a lot
People took advantage of me

World is cruel, unfair

[Red @igothepop]

I admit,

I felt jealous with the others achievement
And yet, people said we cant compare of our own paths with others

Reality is,

It does, everyone’s ego rise, when they are on top, belittling others

[Red @igothepop]

2026,

I didn’t win hackathon, only finalist
I almost dean list
My parents high expectations
My cgpa sucks, idk if 2nd class would beat job market

Im suffocate, alone

Had nobody to shared with

I feel the world’s had always against me in the beginning

[Red @igothepop]

“Will there a hope”

In a moment, i have no clues for the 1st time in my life

I made a lot of mistakes, yet it feels puzzle, doesn’t change at all

[Red @igothepop]

Disappointments ,

I have done so much things that i deserve a dean list or any big achievement i can proud of,

And yet,

Freeerider wins.

[JNS @_devJNS]

not everyone would understand..

[Red @igothepop]

I loveeeee to see a downfall of the person i hated/annoy with.

Pure medicine

[Red @igothepop]

For those who read my thread, congratulations

U just know the “real” me

Pessismitic , egoist, most important “two-faced”

[Red @igothepop]

Only 2 sems left, yet nothing i achieve lately compare to others i knew,

0 friends, 0 support

Is this really a downfall for me, wonder.

[Red @igothepop]

Legit hackathon is goin to be my 1st step on building my career life,

But y tha fuck is hard for me to find a single team, istg

[Red @igothepop]

Hardest thing about Hackathon is not about winning

- Finding a teammate is the hardest btw

[Red @igothepop]

Well past is past, present is present,

Im looking forward for my future, thats all i care about.

And maybe there’s plenty of reasons why i met a lot kind of people that led to this, who knows.

[Red @igothepop]

Now i finally understand how fucking selfish people that i knew, past or present just all fcking same.

So yeah now, my life kinda lonely but i guess cutting off all the people that i knew, kinda give me freedom,im really glad i made it

[Red @igothepop]

“Everyone had their own journey”
“Rezeki masing2”
“Takpe at least u try”
“Gagal harini takpa janji kita usaha”

Most fcking retarded answer, really boiling my head.
Y? Because these shitty bastards feedback shows that my circle, no matter past or present, are a fcking troll.

[Red @igothepop]

Lets be honest, whatever “motivation” or some speech back in primary or secondary, its all bullshit.

And honestly im tired with most of them turd keep giving me a retarded loop answer that really piss me off