The avoidant arc: find an amazing woman you really like and love, and then use 100% of your brain power to convince yourself that you don’t deserve her, she is wrong for you, sabotage the relationship, and drive her away because you’re scared of being truly loved.
When the disappointment is that heavy, you don't even get mad at the person anymore. You get mad at yourself for ignoring your instincts when the red flags were practically screaming.