today i was talking to myself abt whether or not im living in a truman show type situation and i decided probably not because the ethics of observing my secret mental illness when im alone and NOT intervening has gotta be illegal
but then i was like WHAT IF they’re doing like a what happens if xyz goes untreated? and then i decided no one would do that study for more than 30 years like a tight 30 year study makes sense, so then i was like ok perfect i only have four more years in the simulation
in my head and my heart i am a whore but in the real world i don’t want anyone to touch me. but i see shirts that say he/him/hole and im like wow that’s so me. GIRL who do u think u r?? running around leaving scars? collecting your jar of hearts? tearing love apart?
every hot trans person is always going on about polycule this polycule that! whatever happened to confusing relationship to sexuality and weird body trauma!!
ok i don’t mean i need the autism swing i mean that the feeling i would get from being hit by a car and thrown across the asphalt would do for me what autism swings do for ppl who like them
yknow how autism swings work cuz it’s like compressing the body or whatever. i think genuinely that’s what im needing when i feel like i need someone to beat me up
like i need to throw myself down the stairs but not in a self harm way it’s in a uhh. idk what u call it but like. it feels like a sensory need. does anyone copy
sitting in my hammock eating breakfast (five chicken tenders and five marshmallows) and watching peacemaker on a very legal site, as adrian chase would approve of, i believe
peacemaker ep 1 is crazy cuz u got adrian chase “its my famous butt dance” and then u got john cena in tighty whities so tight and so white u can see his entire cock and also balls. and then he blows up a lady with his mind