Just got back from visiting countries in the Middle East like the UAE, Kuwait, Bahrain and my Christian MIL says “all these countries in the Middle East and you didn’t go to Israel!?”
Like man, what a fuckin privilege to truly not live in the world or of it, huh?
my most boomer take is that being endlessly gentle with yourself all the time and never forcing yourself to do anything you don’t want to do isn’t self care it’s lazy and it’s bad for you
Ive wanted to do a feature film for some time now. After a ton of contemplation Ive finally settled on this idea that is both attainable as well as something I’m passionate about.
Anyway, Twitter has become my weird outlet to hold myself accountable so here’s the ongoing thread.
I’ve had this pinned since 2018. I wish I still had that confidence, but lately I feel like that my finances (not apparent) directly reflect where I am talent-wise. So… I’m not too talented, and I deserve to be poor for thinking I could be anything more than where I am right now
Just screaming into the void at this point but putting my film out there and having people give their feedback is and always will fucking destroy me. I’m grateful people respect me enough to not just pander and be yes men, but at the same time it’s heartbreaking.
I really hate my brain sometimes because I had a test screening for my feature film and so many people commented that the film truly had “heart” and I’m immediately like “so they fuckin hated it. They’re basically just saying like nice try at making a movie.”
“I think it's worth to have a cost of, unfortunately, some gun deaths every single year so that we can have the Second Amendment to protect our other God-given rights. That is a prudent deal. It is rational.” -Charlie Kirk
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Anyway, I’m starting to panic because after all that work on a feature film, I’m still stuck with a shitty product that’s not gonna draw people in. I feel like this project is just gonna get me nowhere…
I’m running into a problem I’ve had with literally every film project I’ve ever produced. The technical side of my film is what’s holding it back. Everything I’ve ever worked on has had some issue (audio is bad, lighting sucks, etc.) and it’s what’s always made me lol so amateur.
Has anyone ever had an experience where you just… don’t vibe with a friend anymore? They didn’t offend me, we didn’t get into a fight or anything, but I recently just had a visit with an old friend and I’m just like… idk if I really wanna see you anymore.
During an audition, the guy said my name like “Ike Magooah”
I said, “oh it’s actually Mauga”
And they responded “Oh, Ike Mama(?)”
So yeah, if/when I go full drag, I got my stage name.