i think I lost my spark. I talk less, I keep to myself, I've mastered distance. I'm not angry, I'm not bitter. I just don't have the energy to show up like I used to. Somewhere along the way, I slipped into this I don't care phase.
There's a version of me that shows up every day, does what's expected, smiles, laughs and jokes and then there's the version of me that sits in the dark afterward, hollowed out, wondering how long i can keep living as two different versions of myself.
meanwhile, I'm learning how to respond with calm instead of anger. I don't want to be right all the time i want to be understood. I don't want to prove a point, I want to build peace. That's growth for me now.