I wish I could tell every1 to persevere thru aloneness/loneliness. In 3-5 yrs you'll no longer crave human connection or even interaction, & will gain access to a v rare side of life & personhoodʕ´•㉨•`ʔ
Cutting off/ghosting the 1st person I've had a relationship of any kind w since ending my 3 yrs of hermitude bc they stood me up's surprisingly easy🧸🌀🪆irl confirmation that I truly freed myself from the unbearable human need for connection is nice🦦
My reintegration into society after 3 yrs of isolation/hermitude is just never ending reminders of why I isolated in the 1st place🪆the goal is to eventually get a job that'll allow me to isolate comfortably, & outlive the evil I got for a mother so I can dance on her grave🤹🏼♂️🧸
Got into my first fwb/situationship ever in hopes it'd make me finally feel something. It did not🤹🏼♂️🧸🧟♀️🪆if anything it solidified the nothingness; so ig this is just how it is now🧘♀️