Homeless officially gonna give it this 10 days and see how I feel then evaluate if I should eliminate the curse or not. But I'm just gonna try to be there and make it as easy as possible for now to be remembered and to cherish before I go
They blamed me and my mom for my dad killing himself and hated us with a passion so I hope if I were to they would expect people to blame them and blame themselves aswell or just add to their hypocrisy
Trying to stop the spiraling but I just can't it's coming full on I can feel it I guess I just have to let my process play out this time tho I give as much empathy as I get from now on
My family is going to be homeless most likely and I've just accepted theres nothing I can do but go thru it and come out stronger but I feel guilty as a parent and know that they will all be looking down on me more than ever before