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i have always
been my own most vigorous judges and harshest punishers, not others. i have always valued the opinions of others about me, more than i value my own. when i came into the rooms, what someone thought of me was always on the top read more: https://t.co/AGUg67pFTh

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now i am one of those people with stories and kindness for the newer folks and are moved by being a part of their miracle. i have not always been one of those guys, even though i did my best to emulate those who were. this is a perfect example read more: https://t.co/lfAWO6gBRa

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there is a difference between denial and refusal, even though denial can mean a refusal to see the truth. denial is about truth, while refusal is about action. even in the sense that we use it in recovery, denial is all about what is true read more: https://t.co/6sUvtuMk2G

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despite how self-centered i once was, i arrived to recovery almost devoid of self-esteem and incapable of loving anyone, perhaps most especially myself. well, ironically what i used as my source to enter the void this morning read more: https://t.co/HcgIfCtpeo

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when left unexamined, anger, fear, shame, and resentment can bring out the worst in me. when one such as myself practices a daily inventory, every day, these little reminders from my source material, can sometimes come off as nagging reminders read more: https://t.co/3erHKel6CU

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no matter what i have going on, i have to remember that my first priority must be to stay clean or i risk losing more than just my clean time. these days, i do not have a whole lot of stuff going on. as i move with a glacial pace towards writing read more: https://t.co/ul3G2e6rWH

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today i will practice love and acceptance and help someone else on their recovery journey. as i was leaving my home group headed home to chill and get ready to go sell cigars, one of the men at the meeting texted me and asked for me read more: https://t.co/pmqj090wY8

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sometimes, though, the rewards of recovery might seem minimal or feel like they are taking forever to arrive. in fact the longer i stay clean, it feels as if i have reached the point of diminishing returns a while ago. read more: https://t.co/NvdOIpuxEq

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addiction tries to weaponize my differences with my peers in recovery to prevent me from getting well. once upon a midnight dreary, the last thing i ever desired was to find a place to belong, or at least that is what i kept telling myself. read more: https://t.co/TWkOggZSBA

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practicing integrity by reliably being all that i am, ensuring that my actions reflect what is inside me. this morning, i am in a fairly good place, emotionally, spiritually and physically. i wanted to work out a bit harder than the workout read more: https://t.co/K55MXoPMaj

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today i strive to accept my past and move on from it, though others may not. believe it or not, at this point in my recovery, this is not an issue for me. yes, there are still a few things i have regrets about and a lingering doubt or two of read more: https://t.co/KHb0JOaN5T

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doing my best to stay grounded in my program by remaining humble. it has been quite a full morning, i was up way too early to run the annual Bolder Boulder 10K. this year my fitness tracker the official course did not agree on distance, read more: https://t.co/pe1zgOv3ih

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I finished the Bolder Boulder 10K and am enjoying @alecbradley Magic Toast the celebrate

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@bolderboulder @alecbradley #magictoast
nothing beats a good cigar after a sub 60 finish

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@bolderboulder @alecbradley #magictoast

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@bolderboulder #imclean42day 59:04 @alecbradley #magictoast

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what is divine in me is what is genuine. okay, that is even a bit of a stretch for me, i may be vain and a more than a bit egotistical, but claiming any sort of divinity is usually not my style. and yet, when i read that line read more: https://t.co/PwK5YeNDKp

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instead of reaching into that bag of dirty tricks that got me through my using days, i begin to rely on spiritual principles to deal with life. i had a terrible night of sleep last night and have no clue why i could not shut down. read more: https://t.co/Mr2izon1AP

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getting vulnerable when i share opens my heart to other addicts. it took a very long minute for me to see that. after all, why in the world would i let anyone in on what was going on inside of me? read more: https://t.co/X75cwSmvpP

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my feelings -- good or bad -- are only temporary and subject to revision. before i get started, i have to say, that one of the gifts i have received from my recovery journey read more: https://t.co/oycmwjZZFL