imouto derangement syndrome

let's try this again!~
minors dni

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

@amicuteenough it really hits different when this seemed to be the most functional relationship i've had ever
it felt like i finally proved to myself that i was capable of being a good partner all for it to collapse like this
i kept blaming myself over someone else's negligence

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

i miss being important to him
i miss when we would hang out and play games together
i miss when we would spend all day watching anime
i tell him i miss these things
and he says he's busy
but he's always playing something and talking with his friends
do i even matter

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

so yeah, honestly i have nowhere to vent my frustrations so screaming to the twitter void has been my only real way to release that frustration. and maybe talk about some other things while i'm at it

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

i don't know how much longer i can take before i just lose it

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

really what am i supposed to believe here?
to me it just seems like he's lost interest in me
it really breaks my heart
i hate the way things have become
no matter how much i express my concerns
nothing changes

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

you cannot buy someone's love
maybe you can pay someone to tolerate you, but it always reaches a point where the money isn't enough for them to stick around

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

i remember i used to get excited over people dming me on discord and every time it'd just be someone asking me to commission them

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

i don't like the uk but i've been simultaneously cursed to find british accents highly attractive

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

it feels like i spent an entire relationship making excuses for someone else because i was too scared to explore the idea that everything isn't my fault

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

sometimes i wanna give my life to someone

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

i'm curious, i wonder if people here have made long-lasting friendships

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

@mc_second69332 🍎

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

i'm a believer in slowburn romance but everyone else wants to jump straight into things. like you don't even know my favorite color. come on.

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

i am incapable of watching shows without other people

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

@N0rbertas LMFAO

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

tbh i like guys who are in touch with their cute side

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

my timeline is actually so fucking gooned out holy shit

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

being vulnerable is hard, every time i opened up my heart i got stabbed 87 times afterwards

[imouto derangement syndrome @imoutoinsanity]

dude i feel like some people are performatively weird, like they only accept weirdness if it's a specific type of weird. if your weirdness is a different kind then they'll hate you forever