Current Important Alters
Jackson - Host 1
Gabe - Host 2
Melanie - Host 3
Marie
Sophia
Ryan
there's others but we had a restructure so mostly just these ones are activeish
meanwhile I Was having scary mental health symptoms I wasn't really understanding and only kind of understood the bare minimum but I did know damn well that wasn't the case
telling my roommates my Deep lore (the anti-gay therapy that was intermingled with weird therapy intended to treat me osdd) and laughing my ass off cuz I do NOT recall 90% of it as more than basic fact anymore. but it was insane.
yall ever be accused of only being transgender because the "evil alter" is holding thr original captive and they think the evil alter wants to use hormone treatment to mutilate the body or whatever? cuz. that was the situation I was in. as a teen.
also helped me realise how much my only instinct to use this app comes from when something happens that historically I might have wanted to text to a friend about but as I don't really have friends usually that's hard. and my two current friends I don't actually tell stuff to
turns out getting a new phone is the solution to curing like half my phone addiction cuz I'm straight up unwilling to log into accounts...so this is just my WiFi Phone / Mp3 now.
but I also don't watch ANY television a majority of the time. I have like 8 analog hobbies Not even including art (which I consider my Job or a Discipline) so I'm well balanced. I just want a phone that isn't massive I have very small hands
it's important for me to note here I have had a pretty bad tech addiction most of my life, it's just that I'm not addicted to my phone in the way a lot of people are where they're locked in on social media or app games...I kinda just watch a LOT of youtube and read
like I thought I was just hanging out by myself this morning writing till I see a thing that is Not my taste and suddenly I'm being possessed by the Personality of Bad Taste
Mel isn't super social with me or Jackson usually but she is the Work guy currently so she's Almost always lurking around because we work a lot. and so in the rare times that we end up engaging in something she Gives a fuck about its like..ghost jumpscare .
getting called Gabey is fine until my roommates nickname (Vivi) sounds So similair from a distance..which means my friend can say either name and presumably get both of our attentions reliably
and I was like 10 and now not only was I the kid who had the incapable-of-empathy mother she was also now very sick physically and mentally and I had to take care of her while the emotional abuse just rapidly escalated
we were speaking w our father and he ended up for one of the first times ever mentioned The Thing that happened that kind of made our mothers brain break and it never got better (traumatic natural disaster) and like
idk it feels vindicating that im not the only person who sees her behavior as abnormal cuz I do feel like I'm just dramatic And Insane most of the time. cuz BEFORE that happened stuff had been hard and I had a kinda weird isolating upbringing but then like...a switch flipped
me when I'm running on 4 hours of sleep woke up at 5 and and I'm trying to go to bed and my roommates r being loud ash at 1 am. I will be committing some mild violence if this is a pattern
this is CLEARLY an AI asset yeah? cool. anyways this is used in the Friday the 13th promo for my former tattoo shop. fucking shameful I'm glad I wasn't involved...third time this has happened btw