I live in Japan, in a small village in the countryside very far from Tokyo. I don't have any animation jobs in Japan, I only draw manga and work pictures from time to time, mostly from overseas.
Most of the time I got work by having people look at my drawings on Twitter, but it is really difficult to get people to look at my drawings here anymore. I don't know how I will find work in the future. It is hard to draw pictures with my illness, and there are days when I can draw a lot and days when I can't. It is hard to get people to look at my pictures on Twitter. It is difficult to get people to look at my pictures on Twitter, but on the other hand, there are people who look at a lot of other artist's pictures. I don't know what the reason is.
I think many times that my paintings might be getting worse. Even if I think it is different, I still think about it in my head. I don't know if it is hard because of depression or why. But without new work it is difficult to get work or satisfy myself. Taking a break may be important, but I think it is also important to keep moving forward anyway.
I am tired of the daily art contests on Twitter. And most artists and favorite people's posts are not visible on my timeline. And I am very sad to think that my work may not be reaching anyone.
It's been great to find new friends here and I appreciate all the friends and fans who are willing to talk.
To continue painting alone at home can just be a bit lonely.
not to get emotional, but please never give up art. no computer generated image is as beautiful as what you create. never give up on yourself. original art is so beautiful.
idk if I can say this, but haobin fanart become real (?) I guess I drew this in october, never planned to post this bc I donβt like how it comes out π₯²