the easiest way to fall asleep quickly when you have insomnia is to use your phone in the dark until you feel like you want to die and then stay awake five more hours after that.
i wasn’t ‘present’ for a good number of years in my life. from like 18-23. i’m 25 now. looking back and realizing i was mindlessly moving, connections weren’t true, didn’t know who i was or what i really wanted for myself, made me kinda sad and resentful for a lot of reasons.