I fantasize a lot about the idea of having Kurapika irl as a partner, and the levels of abuse I’d let him inflict on me are unimaginable—that’s how much I love him. I carved his initial into my thigh and it turned me on. It was as if he had kissed me.
#yumeship#kurapika
I know it isn't real and I can't say I'm actually with him, but having a yumeship with Kurapika that I've kept up for years gives me more satisfaction than my current relationship... At least he doesn't neglect me romantically or sexually, Actually, he turns me on like crazy.
Lately, I keep throwing myself into sex. Maybe it's because I don't get enough attention and love from my boyfriend. God, how I wish Kurapika were real. He turns me on so much,, he gives me everything I want and need.
I complain about being fat, but tonight I want to eat pizza to fill the emptiness inside me. The bad thing about fasting is that the dopamine comes slowly, not instantly like it does with food. The thing is, food lasts 3 hours, while fasting lasts all the time.
Now that I'm relapsing, I can't stop thinking about the sex I had with my boyfriend while he was cosplaying as nerd armin. My God, I wish he'd do it again right now or soon as possible.... Armin is so fuckable i need him inside me omg
When I have sex with my boyfriend, my body freezes up and I don't get aroused because of the trauma he caused me even if i still love him a lot.. When he dresses up in cosplay, I can come so easily and feel so confident.... I wish he did it every time when we have sex