autarkeia

breaching containment.

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

one whose tranquility arises from within; serene in and of oneself.

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

i sit by the shore—not alone, do not worry; the ripples' melody keeps me company.
i just happened to wonder: would your shadow have found its way into mine, had i loved you less?

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

saavan ka mahina pavan kare shor,
jiyara re jhoome aise, jaise ban ma naache mor

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

is there a manual for learning the choreography of a genre that isn't grief?

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is my suffering born of the cruelty of my circumstances, or of the insignificance of my life?

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

how could I resent this ache you've left me, when you have been both my lesson and my blessing?

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

this warm afternoon, the sunlight caressed my cheek as though asking whether i had any more of myself left to lose.

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

july arrived bearing the promise of the unfamiliar, only to become words and letters, painfully familiar.

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

would i matter, if i ceased to awaken?

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

in a perpetual state of losing the will—the will to speak, to dance, to write, to socialise, to eat, to breathe; all so direly.

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

what they call ‘reality’ is a nightmare i cannot bear to behold. and so i close my eyes, hoping for peace and water lilies; yet all that lay hold of me is hands without faces.
now steer me, mother: what boon do i seek— to be awakened, or to be laid to rest?

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

labryinth is a beautiful word for what it means

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i'm so tired, i want to rest. quiet my thoughts, hold my heart still, tell my body its safe to relax, and please tuck me in. i want to rest.

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i think i loved you so much because i hoped you would corrupt my soul.
i hoped you'd draw me so far from virtue that desire might cease to feel like a vice, and indulgence no longer demand an accounting of my conscience.

[sullen girl @fakepalindromes]

Suicide is never the answer but it can be a diverting thought experiment

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

a little relief, all i ask of.

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

one of those nights devoted to persuading my heart to be still.

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and my heart wonders as it beats for the one it lost, while my blood hastens through my veins, calling your name.
if you heard it, would you take it—my heart, that which is truly yours?
and would you keep me close with the promise of eternity, even if you meant only a fortnight?

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

i can coax my own little felicity into being, my own rush of love and joy. and yet, its comfort is fleeting.

so when it fades, i find myself thinking of you again—with a sorrowful heart that longs to host you once more.

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

i can coax my own little felicity into being, my own rush of love and joy. and yet, its comfort is fleeting.

so when it fades, i find myself thinking of you again—with a sorrowful heart that longs to host you once more.

[autarkeia @ipseserena]

there exists so much love in me for myself, and yet, not enough to save myself.