sirius

15 | 🇵🇸🇸🇦🇯🇴 | long-term self harming, undiagnosed eating disorder | lw 35, gw 42
هانت 👍

[sirius @iridescensirius]

intro !!
used to be @iridescentsirus
15 | she/her | 🇵🇸🇸🇦🇯🇴
marauders + shedtwt

[sirius @iridescensirius]

year one of eating disorder: i wish i lived alone so i could starve for weeks
year three of eating disorder: IF I COULD LIVE ALONE I COULD HAVE THE BEST BINGE SESSIONS EVER

[sirius @iridescensirius]

@AngieUrBestie BRING ME THERE BRING ME THERE BRING ME THERE

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dude i’m so sure i gained back to 46kgs it’s not even funny i worked so hard in may and june
it’s so difficult to restrict when i don’t have a scale because there’s nothing keeping me accountable

[sirius @iridescensirius]

bro i’m so blessed i have the most goated jewelry

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@lunar_ecplise__ PURPLE RAIN

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@deftoeses no okay🤍

[sirius @iridescensirius]

@siriusstarves yess exactly, very well-worded
thank you for your encouragement!!

[sirius @iridescensirius]

i have so many ideas for the future and i genuinely want to make change in the world but i’m so unintelligent i can’t even play chess adequately or speak arabic fluently

[sirius @iridescensirius]

what even is the point i’m so unintelligent i’ll never amount to anything

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@siriusstarves any family lore i’m so nosy😭

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WHY DID THAT NOT FIX ANYTHING

[sirius @iridescensirius]

feeling emotions that could only be solved by a binge

[sirius @iridescensirius]

@siriusstarves you’re 100% right, thank you for encouraging me🤍
it can definitely be hard because when you’re practicing, because you have to face being bad at something, but it’s all worth it in the end for improvement

[sirius @iridescensirius]

feeling emotions that could only be solved by a binge

[sirius @iridescensirius]

what even is the point i’m so unintelligent i’ll never amount to anything

[sirius @iridescensirius]

TMI
my vomit was genuinely green??

[Cats @mightbeacat]

meow 👉👈

[sirius @iridescensirius]

@bananayanaz new fear unlocked

[sirius @iridescensirius]

i promise you this is worse than getting kicked in the balls

[sirius @iridescensirius]

men will always call women dramatic but every single time i get my period for the past couple years without fail, the first day always has me laying down in my own sweat (if i take off the blanket i will get very cold) for minimum 2-3 hours (sometimes more) in debilitating pain,

[sirius @iridescensirius]

i believed i was experiencing a heart attack and was about to die)