@MattFUTTrading@PlayGOALS Definitely killed the game imo, suddenly everyone is a pro and no difference between a skilled player and a +95 pace team player
Touched grass today, still heavy but it helped a bit.
Talked to the streets for too long, apparently they are my best friend, even though I find myself like stranger everywhere I go.
I have to act and save my life, made sure that my life pattern is always ups and downs.
Losing your father + being in a draining relationship + financial pressure + isolation… that’s not one problem, that’s multiple high-stress systems hitting at once. And I seem not to be able to handle it.
Hope I would die
I am a reck
Left my job 8 months ago
Opened my own business, thought it was easy but in fact I was broke even to run some social media ads
Been non employed for 8 months now
Trying to survive, thinking about suicide
In debt
I wake up
Do none
Sleep
Repeat
Meaningless life