Nancy Iskander

Mother of Mark and Jacob- 2 angels with wings in Heaven. Here to tell you, if I am ok, you too will be ok❤️❤️#God#family#country#prolife

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

My heart is still shattered every single day since my beautiful boys, Mark and Jacob, were taken from us by Rebecca Grossman.

I’ve seen claims from the Grossman family that I “don’t want closure,” that I’m filled with “vile malice forever.” Nothing could be further from the truth.

Since the moment I lost them, only one feeling has lived inside me: **overwhelming, endless sadness**. Sadness that they’re not here. Sadness that their little brother Zachary misses them every second. Sadness that our family will never be whole again on this earth.

My only hope for true closure is the promise in the Bible—that one day I will see my boys again in heaven. That is the day I quietly long for. Until then, the ache never leaves.

I do **not** carry hatred or wish malice on the Grossman’s. Especially not on Nick. I think of him often—sitting in that courtroom, watching his mother led away in handcuffs, then having to text her boyfriend to leave his family alone. Imagining the heartbreak and confusion that young man felt shakes me to my core. It reminds me how the choices parents make can either protect or shatter their children’s hearts. My prayers are with Nick- No child should ever have to endure that pain.

To everyone who has asked: I want to be very clear—I am **not** the admin of the “Justice for Mark and Jacob” Facebook or Instagram page, and I do not post there. It was lovingly created and is run by a caring community member who was heartbroken by what happened and wanted to honor my sons and seek truth. I’m deeply grateful for the love and support these pages represent, but they are not mine to speak for.

All I want is for my boys’ smiles and laughter to be remembered, and to raise Zachary with their memory alive in our home, and to one day hold Mark and Jacob again.

Thank you for reading my heart. If you’ve lost someone, if you’re grieving, if you believe in second chances for broken families—please know you’re not alone. Your kindness here means more than words can say. 💙

Mark & Jacob—forever in my soul. Until we meet again.

#MarkAndJacob #ForeverLoved #GrievingMom #FaithOverHate

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@FreeBirdWorld69 @Wejolyn Amen indeed- I am a living proof!

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

I testified in court this week, and the question I keep getting asked is: “How can you believe in a good God after He allowed your two sons to be mowed down by a speeding SUV and die on the road like that?”
I do believe it.
I believe in a good God who allowed my sons to die this way. He also allowed the brutal crucifixion of Jesus Christ and the violent deaths of His disciples — events that were followed by the resurrection and the explosive spread of Christianity across the world.
To God, death is not the end. It’s simply changing places.
Yes, this has shattered me and my family. The pain and suffering are very real and deep. But I believe God sometimes permits evil to touch us, just as He did with Job.
I hold onto hope that I will one day see the fruit and greater purpose that comes from my boys’ deaths — just like the greater good that followed the suffering of Christ and the early church.
If you disagree, feel free to challenge me. I’m open to the conversation.

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@billdotd No apology needed.. ❤️❤️

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

I have asked myself that question as well and I am guessing maybe everyone’s heart is different and only the strong ones can get through tragedies and hard times- But whether I am right or wrong, I also challenge myself not to compare my pain to others- I mean we each get a set of cards and everyone should just focus on playing their best hand. To each their own❤️❤️ love from my heart to yours.

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@shitscaredmum I am so sorry I lost 2 sons, I feel your pain times 2. You are in my prayers today,

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@awritefarley Counting the minutes

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@bridges_do91347 Amen, He is all knowing, all wise and all powerful

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@billdotd People asked on social media because my faith came up in the testimony

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@Wejolyn God bless you and bless your angel in Heaven, he is now with Mark and Jacob,

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

Amen- I am so sorry about your daughter, I like to believe He is in charge of every little detail in the universe from the planets sizes, gravity, rotations… to our life details where we were born, where we live… etc… I think He sometimes allows evil ( and evil people) to hurt us but somehow uses it for our good and His Glory, I am hurting don’t get me wrong, but I like to believe the death of my babies was part of a very big production and it’s just one scene.

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@b_c_m_123 I agree it might not be His doing, but He allowed it, no? He could have stopped it, but didn’t, He allowed evil to hurt those two boys who loved Him so much, which seems so unfair, like in Job’s case. I like to believe He is in charge of every detail even when it means we hurt.

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@HeidiHarrisShow You are too sweet!

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@NorCal_RepoMan @Stellaaa Thank you both so much

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@shebacat22 Thank you ma’am

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

My Mother’s Day hit different this year…
Everyone asks if it’s hard without Mark and Jacob. It is. But this year, the hardest part was opening this sweet handmade card from Violet.
She made a big pink heart that says “Happy Mother’s Day”… and right in the middle, she wrote “Mark & Jacob.” And included Jacob’s favorite Bible verse.
My heart broke. I felt like such a bad mom — have I talked about her brothers so much that she thinks the only way to make me happy is to include them? That this day couldn’t just be about her and me?
I don’t know how to address this and it’s breaking my heart even more. They’re still part of our family and our daily life. But I never want her to feel like she has to carry my grief.

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@Venezia1970 Thank you! I am remembering them.

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

🌸Happy Mother’s Day to every beautiful mom who lost a son or daughter,

May you baby send you a sign today, a familiar song, a breeze, a feather.. May he or she tell you clearly

“I love you mom, I am here with you”

If no sign comes and the day feels heavy with the grief and sadness, please know that you are wrapped in love. I know how brave you are and I hold you in my heart.

Have a Happy Mother’s Day. 💗

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@515050M Living with the grief like a dark cloud surrounding us at all times, had it not been for the faith that we will see them again, I don’t think I would be breathing today. Would love to meet your friend

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

Once upon a time my husband and I had three beautiful sons. Then a drunk and irresponsible driver came along.

[Nancy Iskander @isknan]

@GrannyGail31 Such a kind comment, thank you