That deep fear her writing was directly tied to her torment is why she almost takes the reverse Opalite. But then she realizes that isn't true at all. The dance scene happens after he saves her from making that choice because that weight is lifted from her. She's completely free.
She just wanted to be seen and loved and feel like a person again. Remember when she said that one of the best things about Travis is that he was never judgemental and he makes her more confident in herself than she's ever felt. Visual representation of that is right here.
notice how she rejects potential new friends when she has to essentially mother that rock, but makes friends with the photographer while posing with her partner because he’s so compelled by their incredible energy for life… you leave the rock behind and BLOOM in all aspects
Can we talk about how the rock only communicates through friendship bracelets aka her work, that she wrapped around him no one knows what the rock is like except for her .the version everyone else knew of she created it and made him that. And after they broke up
I love how this perfectly represents their last relationships. She was with a rock, something stable. Boring, but stable and complacent. She wasn’t aware of the fact the rock was hurting her because it was doing absolutely nothing (exactly), so she sprayed herself thinking she was the problem. The other character is actively witnessing how much the cactus is hurting him but is still determined to keep the relationship going, even when he isn’t the issue and he knows that. He sprays the cactus because he knows how much he was being hurt. and then they find each other like 🥹🥹
her inclusion of this with no commentary conveyed exactly what it needed to. such a dehumanising, humiliating moment and we can all feel it, but that’s how people treat her, like a tourist attraction…
Eldest Daughter is the ONLY Track 5 where she isn’t fearful of someone leaving or grieving the loss of abandonment but also it directly calls back to past track 5s & it’s all the opposite now!
She is home, can make promises & isn’t begging for the footnotes of someone’s life❤️