≡I tried to be someone else,but nothing seemed to change,I know now,this is who I really am inside,finally found myself,I know now,this is who I really am♥≡
Why is it kinda embarrassing to feel this depressed, this defeated, this angry… kinda suicidal with the faith i have and the strength i carried all these years.. i feel like im done :/ .. and it doesn’t sit right with me that im there at this age
I just want to die tbh.. i no longer think my existence matters.
I feel like i am just a waste of space..
I had potential, so much energy and dreams.. but look at me now :/
I discovered that when i really feel down, and heartbroken.. my playlist is between Taylor Swift, Sleep Token and Bad Omens .. and some Nothing but thieves.
I witnessed a lot of deaths, but not actual deaths, the death of parts of me, the deaths of people i once loved and they broke me by leaving simply without looking back
Someone told me yesterday “as much as I’m dead inside, you are more dead and worse than me.. where is the passion for life?”
I don’t know, still looking for it.