🇵🇸دوراينات

sorry, next

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

Think of yourself first before you think of other's

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

and its bleeding.

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

dear diary, ive been hearing voices ask me to that, but i told i didnt want to. but there was one voice that makes me feel i need to do it again. the voices said "buat je la bukan selalu benda tu buat kau relax ke? lagipun kau lama tak rasa puas kan?"

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

dear diary, whtvr that i do to makes ppl like me or proud of me i always ruined it. i always be a burden to them.

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

dear diary, i did that again. after more than 3 months ive been clean from it. i cant hold it anymore. and its my fault. im the problem on my own story. i dont deserve to be anywhere.

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

hey diary, im still alive btw. even i have thoughts to harm myself again to makes me relieved. but i cant do that anymore. theres a thing i want to achieve. no, im not gonna tell. let me keep for myself and surprise everyone.

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

yea you guys never saw me merajuk, terasa for 2days is it? then make me fcking sad again and after that you might see I'm not moving at all.

[lets heal and recover @recovery_your]

Suicidal thoughts don’t always sound like “I want to die.”
Sometimes they sound like:
• “I don’t want to wake up.”
• “I can’t do this much longer.”
• “I don’t feel built for life.”
• “I’m tired of being in pain.”
• “I just want everything to stop.”

These aren’t attention seeking thoughts.
They’re distress signals and you deserve support.

[َ @gffyoq]

i lied, i didn't go to sleep. i actually stayed up all night with tears rolling down my face wondering why i'm never good enough for anyone and what i did to deserve all this.

[ً @wtffrio]

🩷

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

and now i exactly know why I'm losing spark, and become heartless back then when with him. although i always tell people, he's a nice guy but honestly hes just a guy who doesnt know how to make things go right. and the more i discover myself back then, i traumatized.

[𝕊𝕒𝕞𝕞𝕪 @FromN5_]

before i give up on people, i always make sure i really tried. so nobody can act stupid when they don’t hear from me anymore.

[27. @dimvji]

the urge to move abroad and never come back

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

i dont like people forcing themselves to be with me when they already don't feel anything abt me. just be honest. sad? yes i am. mad? no. i wont be mad if they leave me. ill mad at myself for not making ppl stay.

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

last night, I tried my best to control my feelings. my heart feels uneasy, heartache. idk is it bcs of that or did something actually happen.

[Dr.Hamza Alsharif 🇵🇸 @Hamzasharif5750]

If you hate israel, repost this.

I want to test something.

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

i deserve not being missed at all after what I've done to him. believe it or not that's how things go.

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

im hurting myself again n again.

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

i thought i heal alrdy, but no. i never heal. it is always coming back whenever they want. too many suic*de thoughts that i cant even think which one i should do.

[🇵🇸دوراينات @itsbdiarys]

i dont deserve anyone. anyone also dont deserve me. im useless as shit. i dont know what i want in my life. i just could die alrdy. really.