Grabe, the random thought with image on my mind hit me different last time. Like... am I going back to THAT state? But I think it's worst this time because I literally picture myself out while doing the DEED π€¦π»ββοΈπ
Nakakapagod lalo kasi parang akala niya ata siya lang napapagod at naiinis sa sitwasyon. π€·π»ββοΈ paano tayo magiging soft girl kung ganyan yan sya. HAHAHAHA. Ptngn π€£π€£π€£
Him: Minsan ba naiisip mo pa rin 'yon? (SU****E thing)
ME: Yes. Lalo kapag nararamdaman kong mag-isa na naman ako kahit hindi naman talaga. Kapag naiisip ko na pabigat lang ako sa lahat. Gusto ko na lang matapos lahat, pati sarili ko.
May the Lord forgive me for the unwanted thoughts I had 2 days ago...
Like the other side of my brain's telling me to end EVERYTHING. π
I thought I'm way past my old self, turns out, the darkness is still lurking and is now trying to make my hands dirty again π
Ang hirap mag breakdown kapag adult ka na. Kailangan scheduled and may limit lang kasi you have to show up kasi if you don't, who else will? Atleast for yourself, right? Kbye.
people don't understand how draining it can be to try to explain what's happening inside your head, no one knows when you're struggling to understand it yourself, there are times when you just unintentionally feel sad and start to feel alone.