Allah knows your pain, your tears, and your struggles. He sees your efforts. Allah has not left you He is preparing something good for you. Sometimes hardships are a blessing, and sometimes they are a lesson.
Somewhere in your 20s or 30s you’ll get the opportunity to rebuild your life after a negative loop, heal from what broke you, live in your own space, reconnect with your discipline, and learn to love yourself again. It’s very important that you see that journey through.
I think friend betrayal hurts worse than betrayal from a partner because friendships are usually built on choice not obligation. A romantic relationship comes with expectations, jealousy, conflict, and the possibility that things might not work out. But a friend is someone who chooses to be in your life without any of that. They see your highs your lows & your insecurities, your wins, and often know parts of you your partner doesn’t. So when a friend betrays you, it can feel like they had a front row seat to your life and still chose to move against you. It’s not just losing a person it’s losing trust, memories, loyalty, and sometimes the version of yourself that felt safe with them. That’s why for me friend betrayal leaves a wound that’s harder to explain and longer to heal.
Human approval is unstable. Someone may praise you today and criticize you tomorrow, so it's wiser to anchor your life in deeper principles than in other people's opinions.