I highly recommend you find yourself a clingy (healthy) lovey dovey partner who's super excited about you. Life is too short to spend it with someone who act like showing love is a chore.
It’s never really about the smoke when I’m alone… it’s about that still moment where everything in my head gets loud. Memories start playing, choices get questioned, old people get missed, dreams feel close and far at the same time… and somehow, in all that noise, I find a kind of quiet that only I understand.