i’m still healing. & i don’t just mean healing from draining relationships or heartbreaks.. i’m healing from the mistakes i made in the past, my family issues, friendship issues, failing myself, disappointments i received, from expectations i couldn’t reach because i was too focused on the wrong things. from all the times i’ve been betrayed by the people i thought i could count on and everything i know i didnt deserve. so when i tell you i am still healing this is what i mean, it’s not about love.. my soul is still learning to clap for the pieces of myself that nobody wants to clap for. i’m still on the process of figuring things out on my own, still healing silently. i’m more focused then ever and ready to become the best version of myself.
People think depression means your sad and crying all the time. Depression for me is being stuck in a twilight zone. i can't think , i don't respond to things , nothing is interesting , i just feel empty. not sad , just blank. I have a lot of days like this and they are hard .