The thing i learned in my life if a person dont value your efforts no matter what you do nothing can melt their heart for you , you're just dead to them .
If a person is treating you bad and doesn't feel guilty about it, stop gaslighting yourself by saying that oneday they'll realize trust me your extra efforts can never make them realize that you deserve good treatment too no matter how much you try.
My birthday is coming and again I'll be lonely this year, and the saddest part is the people i celebrate alot w on their birthday's dont even bother to give me the same energy back. It hurts alot.
I wish i can go back and fuck people lives the way they fucked mine so that they can feel how bad it feels to live with the trauamas they gave, people dont think that how much it takes for a person to heal to get back to normal.
Imagine you're guilty and you bear most heartbreaking cruel behaviours to make them believe that you're really sorry and you recieve that you mean nothing to that person and all of that was just to listen that you're dead to that person .
I just want to share w someone how my inner world is but i dn have words to express plus sadd to accept that the only bff i have is not the same anymore .