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21 / Mikhail Angelus @ Famfrit / pfp: @sif06nova
/ 🏳️‍⚧️ it, 18+ pls. RT heavy / swishes my big fluffy $$$$-ing tail

[meows @meows4heals]

every time i tune into a kefka stream, they keep saying "fake gays, look in"... why are the gays fake...? where are we looking in?? the closet?? but wouldn't that make them real????

[the heart @Fredward3948576]

The body is refusing to cooperate. I have offended it in some way. Awful. The flesh is pathetic and tyrannical

[Tiago🐂🔞 (🍦 YCHs: 19/22 done) @SaintBullArt]

watched a video about the shiny hunting community and was possessed to channel my inner Nyazsche to draw this

[angelus @ivegotagrenade]

very embarassing to be ranting over smth that started via an mmo but im so so so tired

[angelus @ivegotagrenade]

rant over. sorry.

[angelus @ivegotagrenade]

its really fucking exhausting and all of it has been kinda swirling around the last few days im just so fucking anxious all the time. looking at stuff ik will hurt me. i don't know what to do. i rly ddont

[angelus @ivegotagrenade]

ocd fun.

[angelus @ivegotagrenade]

and then every time something does go wrong i feel the need to do stupid irrational things to "fix" it. maybe deleting my character and unsubbing would make it better? maybe if i left the circles im in? some form of self-flagellation to make up for trying to help myself.

[angelus @ivegotagrenade]

and i know people dont like it either! ive had multiple discussions with my partner over this. but whenever i need to do something even a little selfish i run loops in my head of every bad outcome and it takes a lot for me to ever take a step and then every time i do it blows up

[angelus @ivegotagrenade]

yk every time i stop trying to be a people pleaser at my own detriment something bad happens or i hurt someone. I feel like if i ever put myself first something catastrophically bad will happen which sounds insane but. it's constantly reinforced. idk what to do.

[⊹ sourapple 🍏 @icxcoii]

monthly pondering

[angelus @ivegotagrenade]

how do i get it across to my mom that id rather worry about her health for a bit than find out she's having surgery 90min before it happens lol. please!!! worry me a little!! it's preferable!!

[impboss @ImpgirlYuri]

kigurumi is scary because they could be sticking their tongue out at you and you wouldnt even know

[angelus @ivegotagrenade]

i have no idea what to nickname it

[angelus @ivegotagrenade]

shiny suicune obtained.....ribbon master begins

[♱usako♱ @CureDestiny]

Everything is okay

[angelus @ivegotagrenade]

im not even happy that we cleared anymore. all it did was make things worse for multiple people lol