Sometimes I wonder if I've projected too much strength for anyone to believe that my parents trigger the worst of my anxiety. If I just project so much "well adjusted sparkling energy" for anyone to believe that I freeze/fawn when uncomfortable. If I just learned to mask so much
On me to have to understand and forgive that the "love" I was given was the only way they knew how to show it. And we come full circle to the question of what exactly do I project that makes me people believe that they know my situation better than I do.
Cover up bruises or just let them be seen because either way people dont *actually* see them. People dont actually see the scars, literal and metaphorical, and if they do they cant handle them, or somehow, some way *I* am the one who cant see the "truth". Because obviously, it's
Everyone: i know hq ended almost 5 years ago but we need to know more about the characters!!!
Furudate: Well, bokuto has a goatee now
Everyone: wow!? Really!? Tell us more!!!!
Furudate: iwazumi and oikawa don't really talk anymore
Everyone: tell us less.
Nothing says therapy is a journey more than doing something that is supposed to help you, only to have it unlock a bigger, older, probably written in the marrow of your bones, anxiety fear. Yay for stabbing old issues, deep sigh at unlocking worse spirals.