I’m gonna weigh myself tomorrow, I’m genuinely scared, I’ve been putting it off because I’ve need forced to eat for a while, so I’m really scared, I also really wanna cut the urges are so bad right now.
It annoys me badly that my friend always have to eat less than me, they also know about my ed, but if I don’t eat they won’t, they copy me in everything aswell, so when we eat I like take a small amount, they take a way smaller amount and still doesn’t eat all of it
I need to kms I feel like such a child for throwing myself on the floor crying about a wig, life is stressful and everyone expects me to have things figured out, I don’t want to I’m gonna kms anyways
I have my friend over, my mum don’t have time to make dinner, so now I have to deal with someone that doesn’t want anything, when I told my mum she got mad like it’s my fault, I hate this place I just wanna cry in peace