@KayceSmith@LauraRutledge He did the interview… am I missing something? Certainly coulda just stopped and done it right away without perhaps appearing sulky, but his feeling of wanting to cele right away with teammates hardly appears outlandish 🤷🏽♂️.
Hello X.
Many of you will know me as a top poker player who doesn’t say very much, and for a long time, I guess I didn’t really think I had much of value to say.
I’ve kept a low profile for most of my life. I’ve built my career with a quiet determination and focus on the things I could control—my preparation, my decisions, my consistency. “I don’t waste my time with social media,” I told myself. And while that decision was undoubtedly the right one for me at the time, the reasons were fabricated—or at least incomplete. What I didn’t admit so explicitly was my fear: fear of criticism, of vulnerability, and of my inability to control my own obsessive nature.
I would almost certainly meet the criteria for autism spectrum disorder. I would almost certainly meet the criteria for bipolar disorder, though I never stuck around long enough after an episode to receive a formal diagnosis (whether or not I identify with these labels is a topic for another day). I’ve known the isolation of being forcibly separated from society, for my own protection, and wondering how I got there. I’ve experienced being so socially drained from a day of live poker that I’ve gone to sleep hungry. Not because I was so focused that I lost my appetite, but because those one or two brief human interactions required to feed myself were just too much. I know how absurd that sounds—I knew it back then too—but no amount of rationality stopped it from being true.
Over time, I slowly adapted. I learned how to sublimate that anxious energy and turn it into a motivating force—into an obsessively focused drive to reach my potential as a poker player, to prove my worth to the world through external accomplishments.
And then the validation I was seeking started coming.
In 2019, I was voted by my peers in a CardPlayer magazine survey to be the best player in the world—my dreams had become reality.
My ego had a field day, but it wasn’t long before I realized there was still a piece missing.
Now that I was painted as “the best”, there was no margin for error. Despite everything I had accomplished, I was no less fragile. Every misstep felt like a threat to the whole narrative. Am I slipping? Am I getting old and complacent and lazy? How much longer can I keep tricking people into thinking I’m so good when I know how big my mistakes can be?
And none of that even touched the root of what I was actually seeking underneath it all—to be accepted. So when someone threw out an offhanded criticism—“boring,” “robotic,” “no personality”—I took it to heart. Because somewhere in me, I was scared they were right.
Driven by my desire to be the best poker player I could be, I started doing deeper inner work—peeling back the layers of my belief structure and examining what was uncovered. Why did I feel like I had to be perfect to be worthy? What was I really seeking through my success? Uncomfortable investigations that slowly but surely started to free me from my preconceived notions of who I was and who I should be.
And I saw the benefits—in my performance at the table, yes—but more so in my day-to-day interactions with my family, my friends, casual acquaintances, and even total strangers. The progress empowered me and urged me onwards. The more I leaned into vulnerability, honesty, and trust in others, the more confident, authentic, and self-assured I felt.
I’m learning to listen not only to my precious logic but also to the quiet, mysterious, unexplainable voice within. The voice that speaks when _I_ am silent. The voice that now compels me to write this—and to expose it for the world to see.
And so here I am—the kid inside the robot costume.
Just another human being in pursuit of love, of connection, of belonging.
Tired of running from my shadow and ready to stop and turn around (I hope).
This message is for anyone who feels trapped in the darkness. I’ve lived through times that felt unbearable—where the idea of peace, or connection, or even a quiet mind felt impossibly far away. If you’re in that place right now, I want you to know: it can get better. You’re not broken. You’re not beyond help. Keep going.
I also want to thank all the people who saw something in me that I took a long time to see in myself and guided me down this path. Some will know who they are. Others may never realize how much a small gesture meant to someone who was struggling. I’m deeply grateful for all of you.
TL;DR: Hi, I’m new here.
PS my intention is to be quite intermittent in my engagement with social media, at least initially, so if you reach out to me and I don’t respond please don’t take it personally.
@DColpoys23 All he’s done is had success, throughout a long career that has seen poker change... and he’s continued to win, his way. Not everyone has to play the same. Or play a way that you think is correct.
These are the compliments that really mean the most to me. You get what you put into this world. Anyone I ever come into interaction with I treat them like family. Unless they give me a reason not to or I feel bad energy. I’m not very religious, but I am very spiritual. Trust me when I tell you this once you find peace within yourself everything else is much easier. Thank you to all the dealers staff and players for making this @WSOP a great one. I hope we can keep growing this beautiful Game that we love. 🦍
@TPostMillennial It’s difficult to conceive of the ineptitude the libs have shown for some time- this is only the latest. Then again, we voted them back in, even given the PM’s communist manifesto.
When is enough enough? When do we, as a people, show that we have the 2 B’s: brains and backbone?
The Coquitlam Express are excited to announce the acquisition of 2006-born forward Nolan Dupont from the Blackfalds Bulldogs in exchange for 2005-born goaltender Brady Smith.
Dupont is coming off an impressive season that saw him win the Centennial Cup with the Calgary Canucks (AJHL). He posted 56 points in 50 regular season games, and added 13 points in 11 playoff games, showcasing his offensive talent and ability to perform in high-pressure situations.
🗣️ Tali Campbell, President of Hockey Operations and General Manager:
“Nolan is someone we've had our eye on for quite some time. He is a skilled, versatile forward who brings speed, tenacity, and a huge offensive upside to our lineup. Dating back to his U15 season, he’s been able to dominate at every level, and we believe he’s ready to take the next step and be successful in the BCHL.”
Proud of our staff and players. I ask a lot of them and every time they come through and exceed my expectations.
This year we are helping with the new Evolution FC along with them keeping busy with community events.
We are honoured to receive the Partnership Award from SHARE Family & Community Services.
We appreciate the recognition however the award really should go to the staff and volunteers who carry out the work for our community. We cannot thank them enough for making our community a better place.
I finally climbed Mt. @BinWeng88. This
is special to me more than most accolades. This was a main goal of mine when I started playing tournaments 4 years ago. Not many people in poker know my early life was very difficult. My father was in prison most of my childhood and my mother was an alcohol/drug addict who I only got to meet twice before she passed away when I was 17. There was a lot of points in my teenage years where I was close to prison/death, statistically speaking that was the path most in my situation end up taking. When I found tournament poker the beauty of it to me was that no matter how rich or poor or what background you come from we all start with the same stack and have to fight the same field to win. I always said no one will ever beat me if that's the case. People always ask me what do I do different that makes me win and there's no answer. I'm a product of my environment, all the things that I went through molded me into the player/man I am today. Diamonds are made from pressure, and the pressure I felt as a child I don't wish on my worst enemy, but it's the reason I am where i am today. #MambaMentality
Emotional win. I really came from nothing. This win is for all those people out there working everyday to get by. They ask me a lot what is it like to be battling against the best players in the world. All I can think about is the fact that the best player in the world is sitting behind a desk or putting on a roof somewhere. I say this because if it weren’t for a few life events going certain ways for me I never would have even had a chance to pursue this career. Forever grateful for these experiences and the support from fans all over the world! Poker is a beautiful game that hasn’t even hit the tip of the iceberg yet for potential growth! Hoping I can be a catalyst to help it!🦍🇺🇸❤️
Canada is lost - as it moves further towards more "democratic" socialism, with the emphasis on socialism.
The Conclusion: The majority of people in Canada like living in a nanny state. They like the state to take care of them, at the expense of freedom.
Don't be like Canada.
And do not blame this Canadian election day disaster on Trump - Canada lived through the authoritarian COVIDcrisis policies, they knew what they were voting for.