is it worse for issues to happen for reasons outside of your control? at least if you're the cause you can always admit your faults and grow to be a better person but when it's outside of your control it feels more personal, it's like nature just doesn't want you to live anymore
why does my brain want to turn sad introspective mode at 3am... here I'm thinking today was ok, I forced myself to try have fun but as they say every roller-coaster has a drop
I know something is missing from me, but I don't know what or where is it, it's driving me crazy I don't even recognise myself anymore, I'm a shadow of a shadow of myself, but who cares? maybe I'm just overthinking it
I'm on the 10th re-watch of babyteeth and something about it hits completely different, last time I felt empathy and anxiousness, this time I felt dreadful and helplessness, I guess that's a testaments to how much I changed as a person