ternyata mau se lost spark apapun gue ke kpop tetep gk mengurangi kasih sayang gue ke haechan. hari ini lagi-lagi ngerasa bangga banget bisa kenal dia selama ini, jawaban knp bisa sesayang itu krn dia emang beneran deserve. gimana dia selalu mentingin perasaan fans terdahulu☹️❤️
Udah di tahap gabisa nangis lagi, too much going on in the past 3 days, yaudah lah it is what it is, emang bener hidup isinya cuma accepting accepting accepting, even our own mistakes.
i am torned between "being happy because finally he's choosing himself now." to
"i am sad because it means that i couldn't able to see him with the group i love the most."
im just gonna feel this pain until it doesn't hurt anymore, until i accept it wholeheartedly ☹️
ini emg gini kah siklusnya? sebentar2 nerima, sebentar2 lagi ga rela. sekarang udah ikhlas, tapi ntar tbtb lagi denial… kaya apa yaa gue… kaya orang plinplan… orang cengo… linglung… sumpah….
ini kah rasanya PUTUS BAIK BAIK mau sedih tp rasanya memori memori yg kita laluin terlalu menyenangkan dan bahagia sampe rasanya sayang aja kalo dinangisin tapi jujur SEDIH BGT KOCAK sampe ke ulu hati dan kayak lu sadar oh.. gak semua yg datang tuh buat menetap ya..