kinda loving the absolute villainy on display here. fernando stealing that fastest lap point for No Reason. cooldown room CACKLING at the leaders incident replay. everyone cussing out the driver in front of them. george russell. banger on banger
everything feels the same. there is nothing new, nothing exciting anymore. i’m stuck in this town which holds me back, only when i leave do i truly feel anything.
i love night. it’s the only time my brain rests. the silence is comforting and i’m left alone to my own thoughts. i can escape to my own world, one in which i’m happy, i’m loved, i’m free.
i think the reason why i love to travel is because i can be whoever i want to be. i’m not held back by the constraints put on me by the people i know - i’m nobody when i travel - i’m free.
i think what i’m missing is true love, someone who would pick me first and see me for who i truly am. yet i stay closed off, in my safe place where i know i won’t be broken because i know if i was broken i wouldn’t ever recover. i’m too weak, my heart is too weak, it’s pathetic.