@progresssCode That will be difficult since it only happened once in this lifetime and that was unfortunately taken away. There are some people that really do not get happiness in life except for brief moments in time, and that is the plan for their life.
@progresssCode It isn’t that I don’t believe in god, it is more that he has led me into a lifetime of struggle and trials to which the thought that god is still with me is few and far in between.