Drenched in your sweat, he looks up, returning your gaze but with a smile, a sort of mischievous grin, a smile you've seen before, a smile you've worn before. The smile of a man who just took your paradise.
You were so close your breath was filled with an indescribable sweetness. A sweetness that coated your tongue and washed over your throat, you could still taste it. You slowly open your eyes and lick the manna from your lips and look down at the shivering, now man, beneath you.
You reach gasping for breath and speaking in tongues, past Jupiter, past Neptune, beyond The Universe itself and just when you outstretch your arm to grasp eternal paradise it vanishes, it disappears into an infinite blackness.
So you push your cock deeper into the faceless whimpering cunt beneath you reaching for the eden that blurs heavens and hells and gods and monsters. The eden where you ejaculate angels and demons and you reign supreme.
You know what it feels like to die but you also know what it feels like to be alive. To be so alive lightning bolts shoot from your fingertips and you crush mortals with a mere gesture.
Trying to harness the power of mystery, bliss, ecstasy, inhibition, repression and pure joy. Trying to repeat history over and over again to get to that place where the planets align and time stands still. The place where heaven meets death and you are God.
You spend hours on the apps, you drive to Boston, Memphis, Flagstaff and beyond looking for that elusive fountain of youth that elusive virgin to slam and fuck trying to grasp a shred of immortality.