i feel like i need to scream so hard and loud that my throat bleeds and my vocal chords explode and a giant black hole forms in my neck and my entire body splits in half starting from the top of my head and slowly and violently ripping straight down the middle and
one of the toughest battles is wanting to have something but not knowing how to let yourself have it.. not knowing how to give yourself the permission to be happy, to be in love or to have a dream you've wanted for so long bc you're not used to good or you think you'll ruin it.