i feel so lazy & pathetic for finding it so difficult to do mundane tasks that everyone else does so Easily. the effort it takes me to wake up or take care of myself or work or go Outside is exhausting but yet it is so Simple. it feels i am burnt out from just being alive
being a functional person with suicidal ideation is so stupid because you're just like, guess i'll make this turkey sandwich for lunch tomorrow. and fuckin DIE