You call her toxic now. But you met her when she was kind, open, and trusting. Before the lies. Before the betrayal. Before she had to protect herself from you. She became guarded because you kept hurting her. She became reactive because you kept crossing lines.
She became tired because she kept choosing you while you chose yourself. That wasn't toxicity. That was damage. And expecting her to stay soft after everything you put her through is the real denial. You didn't lose a good woman. You changed her, then blamed her for the result.
At the right time, God will make it happen. Not too soon, not too late. What is meant for you will not pass you by, because His timing is perfect, and His promises never fail.