she's not herself right now. her head doesn't know how to feel. one minute she's laughing and having fun, and the next she's zoning out and overthinking, questioning everything all while holding back the tears. she desperately wants to cry. she just wants to feel okay.
i always wished for someone who'd be afraid to lose me but how could anyone fear losing me when all i ever showed was that l'd stay no matter how they treated me
have you ever closed your eyes and felt yourself screaming at the top of your lungs? Tears falling, lips sealed, yet inside everything is breaking apart. No sound leaves your mouth, but the pain echoes through every part of you. Some hurts are so deep that the loudest screams are the ones no one ever hears.
a hardest pill to swallow is that people will hurt you. dehumanize you in so many ways and not feel badly about it. they won’t feel a thing actually. they’ll move on with their day, their week, their life, happy as ever but there you are, crushed. loss of appetite. loss of sleep.