@Thumperrr3@ShawnaLeneeShow So there it is. The truth. The real truth. Jesse knows it, but he'll fight to have this profile taken down so that no one else will.
@Thumperrr3@ShawnaLeneeShow She can't shake it. The betrayal echos in her mind every day, even though things have gotten better since then. Still, when all is silent, she thinks back to all the undeserved malice she endured and somehow continues to endure. She's only recently stopped crying at the thought.
@Thumperrr3@ShawnaLeneeShow Eventually she emerged from the psychosis, weak but alive. This was the most horrible offense anyone had ever committed against her, and she had wanted to die because she had lost faith in the human race & human kindness. She still thinks about the pain on a daily basis.
@Thumperrr3@ShawnaLeneeShow So now she just wants the world to know what really happened. After finding out about all the lies, she became suicidal. She had a psychotic break that lasted about 5 days where she didn't eat, shower, or move from one spot in her apartment. She made pros & cons lists for death.
@Thumperrr3@ShawnaLeneeShow It was because he told people that she treated him poorly. She was absolutely gutted. Betrayed. Scared. Scared that someone so close to her could so easily lie about her character after everything she had done. She didn't think anyone could possibly do something like that.
@Thumperrr3@ShawnaLeneeShow After all the stress, after all the things he got from her and all the things she struggled to provide for him (her finances were not great herself), upon being broken up with he dragged her through the mud. She finally figured out why everyone apparently hated on the couple.
@Thumperrr3@ShawnaLeneeShow When he was gifted large sums of money, she encouraged him to spend it wisely and never but once asked for any of it. She asked him to spend it on his neglected phone bill, she encouraged him to open a bank account, she asked him to spend it on his rent bill to avoid eviction.
@Thumperrr3@ShawnaLeneeShow Even after she broke up with him for stealing & lying, she paid for his Uber to the bus station. The little money he did earn, he needed to buy food from the vending machines unless she fed him, which she often did, worrying about him.
@Thumperrr3 He told @ShawnaLeneeShow "I haft to start over again on my bank account from scratch because I paid most of her rent." The 1 time he contributed money was much less than half 1mo rent. She was constantly encouraging him to work because he was always complaining about being broke.
He told @Thumperrr3, "I'm going to give every penny I got to her that we make on my cam and her cam." But he never gave her a cent from his cam. The only money she ever received from him is when she asked him 1 time to contribute a portion of money that he had received as a gift.
He told people he was paying her rent. He told people she was not splitting the money from their couple shows against his will ("it's very unfair"). He manipulated others to give him money because she was going to "get kicked out of her place," when she was in no danger of that.
She knew he caused her stress, but she had no idea what he was doing behind the scenes. She only knew of a couple lies at first, but later, dozens & dozens of lies TO her & ABOUT her were revealed. Almost too many to list. Upon discovery, she was in shock, sobbing.
She knew it would be a bad idea; she knew he only caused her stress with how much she cared and gave to him, but she thought it more important to protect his well-being than her own. In fact, she even explicitly told him that she prioritized his well-being over her own.
She was apparently the only woman to ever support his desired rapping career. She listened, she encouraged, she gave feedback, she complimented. She CARED, and actually let him back into her life after being stolen from because she feared he would kill himself, like he threatened
She begged him to try OnlyFans, but he never listened during the relationship. She let him use her wifi, her lighting equipment, her mic, her tripod, her speakers so he could cam more effectively, all things that cost her money, while he never contributed.
She set him up with ManyCam, she convinced him to get a ManyVids, she taught him how to use Pinterest (since she gave him a business idea where that would be useful), she advised him to utilize Premium Snapchat, she showed him what to post to Insta without getting flagged.
She created an entire CB profile for him. She created his logo. She helped him set up an Itsmyurls profile. She taught him where to go to make his own website, and then how to do it. She advised him on Skype shows, sometimes talking to clients for him, & advised him on marketing.
She spent hours & hours, sometimes full days, teaching him how to succeed. Encouraging him to work when he sat on his phone laughing at funny tweets and then complaining about being broke. Her desperate attempts to motivate him turned into her making him feel "not good enough."
She spent a ridiculous amount of her time over the course of MONTHS tending to Jesse and his very difficult anxiety issues, practically obsessing over his well-being. When he didn't have health insurance, she found free clinics. When he couldn't pay, she did.