i think one of the loneliest parts of growing up is realizing that nobody really knows your whole story anymore. the people who knew you at 15 don't know who you became. the people who know you now weren't there for what shaped you. different eras, different people. we grew up.
Some of you don't realize how much of your personality can disappear when you don’t feel emotionally safe around someone. You become quieter. More careful with your words. Less playful, less willing to be seen. Some connections expand you. Others teach you to disappear.
I genuinely think one of the most intimate things in the world is wanting someone when you're tired. like woah I just had the longest day I've ever had in my entire life and I never wanna speak to anyone ever again but I really want you next to me.
dia sekarang udh masuk univ impiannya and living his live so happily meanwhile whenever i get to think of him i can't help but to smoke cigarettes and just stare into nothingness for hours (it shattered me into peaces until now)
i wish my ex could realize that time that what he was seeking by cheating on me with other men was just an instant pleasure when i gave him my whole heart and poured my love for him and pushed him to chase his dreams because i believed in him and trusted him