I’m so embarrassed by all the pathetic and desperate shit I’ve done in an attempt to feel loved, and I’m more embarrassed that nothing has ever worked.
Unfortunately, I have to admit that I have not done my best. My current situation is a direct consequence of my incompetence. I suck at doing this life thing.
NO ONE TALKS ABOUT HOW DRAINING IT IS WHEN YOUR MOOD IS CONSTANTLY SWITCHING BETWEEN "KEEP GOING, IT'LL GET BETTER" AND "I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE I'M ABOUT TO GIVE UP"