you ever take a look at yourself in the mirror and regret doing because you see too much of your flaws and weaknesses staring right at you. i wish i'd see myself from somebody else's eyes and be looking right at someone who evidently loves her life and herself.
@prinsesachinita Imagine kim sige kag ngawngaw nga gabayad kag buwis nya way makita pero sa issue sa flood control hilom kayka, nga naa dira gi bahin2 inyong kwarta. Selective rapud kaayo inyong mga issue nga birahan oy, ako nimo pasagdii! Di kay mag apil2 pajud ka gadungag2 ka langs lawgaw.
But what if, just what if I married someone who loves me and married me because he really wanted to spend lifetime with me. And accepted me for who I am and all my flaws. Loves being a family man, and plans on having a good life. Huh, i couldn't have asked for more. 😟
But then i realized, the Love of your life doesn't always have to be a man, mine's my daughter. I'm at this point where i could lose everyone, just not her. She's my anchor and she makes me want to live and laugh despite the brokeness i feel inside
Been wanting to have an idle time. Where i don't have to do or think about anything. Just staring at nothing is actually very therapeutic. Well, for me.
Dreading going home, i mean don't get me wrong i love loveeee to be with my girl but the silence and the dismissed elephant in the room is so unnerving.
I miss home. Where you actually communicate w each other, share stories, eat together, having an actual relationship and intimacy, not just customary. There's comfort in knowing that you are going home everyday to people that actually cares and loves you. I miss that.
coming home to a house full of stranger and just fending for yourself and for your little girl. Everyday's a survival mode of how you can ignore the heaviness you've been feeling for years. surrounded but still lonely because it's just strange living with distant people
going home to a place where u feel like ur invisible nd just a nobody. Nobody acknwldges ur presence, ur hardwork, ur exhaustion, nvr heard nd pushed around, like ur staying n that place just so ud have a place to stay yknw wht i mean? But really there's no joy in coming home.
its been ages snce i've last posted bout sumthn but can't even remmber what is nw.anywy im back to post yet anotha cryptic and frstrating thoughts i've been bottling up lately. Pls don't mind me if anyone sees ths, im just ranting my heart out thn gone fr prolly anotha yr or so