260825 #HAECHAN#해찬 bbl 💬😭
🐻: czennies, hi. it’s haechan, celebrating my 10th anniversaryㅋㅋㅋ. it feels really strangeㅋㅋㅋ. part of me is like, “wow, it’s already been 10 years,” but when i look back, i also think, “i really have lived diligently for the past 10 years…”ㅋㅋ. anyway, have i made it this far well enough? i’m still so lacking in many ways, and i haven’t become the adult i imagined i would be. i’m also embarrassed because i feel like i’m so different from the singer i imagined i would be at my 10th anniversary. but even so, i’m incredibly grateful because i feel like i’ve spent these 10 years receiving so much love. but if i talk about myself… sometimes the path i chose can feel heavy and overwhelming to me. i sometimes wonder, “is this really the right fit for me? or does this outfit just look so beautiful that i’m trying to make myself fit into it?” i have thoughts like that sometimes. more than anything, although this job means receiving love and attention from so many people, there are also times when being disliked by people feels unfair and makes me sad. i want to brush it off by saying, “i’m okay. no, they’re just like that because they don’t know me,” but sometimes, without even realizing it, it still hurts a little. even when i go on stage thinking that things might change if people see me working hard, there are things that don’t change.
but you know what? i was happy. being on stage, singing and dancing, traveling around the world, receiving love, and having stages that i could continue performing on made me so happy. whatever form it took, whatever team i was part of, the fact that i could feel that way everywhere i was made me so happy. i was so happy that i could share and show you so much music, both as part of a team and as haechan. it’s strange, isn’t it? even though there are times when i receive criticism that has no emotion or reason behind it, i can still say that i’m happy…ㅋㅋㅋ i think that’s because you were sincere with me. i think i felt that sincerity every time i performed on stage and every time an album was released. that’s why i think i’m excited even when the blingy album is coming out, even though we released the album the way we did.
i don’t think of myself as a singer who has reached their 10th anniversary yet. i still get nervous, there are still so many times when i worry, and i know i can do better, so i don’t want to think of myself that way. i’ll perform while hoping that you can see that in me too. i’m not very trendy, so i don’t really know much about what’s popular, and i’m not very good at those things. i’m also a little old-fashioned as a person(?) so i might seem predictable, but i’ll keep going happily.
thank you so much. thank you, truly, so, so much. thank you for reading such a long message. i hope this letter can become an opportunity for you to take one more step closer to haechan. it’s still not easy for me to reveal what’s really in my heart, but even so, i’ll keep trying to get closer to you.
see you tomorrow!!
“lastly, nct dream almost disappeared but thanks to the fans we came back. we even made it to our 10th anniversary but you deserved the congratulations and praise. thank you so much, you created this anniversary”
OH MY GOD DREAMIES 😭😭😭🥹🥹🥹