@cattapilosh they got fan letters and jaehwanโs said โyouโre pretty even without going on a dietโ, jihoon asked โis there one like that for me?โ and he got told this
u know whats even crazier ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ the fact that jihoon has implied several times that he was bullied as a child for being chubby ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
as a may who has consumed countless hours of media on jihoon and spent countless hours thinking about him and spent countless hours analyzing him... here is my real unfiltered take (i love and support him exactly as he is, i accept jihoon completely for himself and understand his limitations and i accept them) i think ppl don't quite understand his personality. let me explain (remember this is my opinion) what I think jihoon is like...
first of all, *he's in love with the craft* but he's not in love with the extras that go along with it. if jihoon could, he would throw himself into filming and never do a single promotion. his only wish in life is to do what he loves, he doesn't care if you do or don't watch it and he doesn't care to be in the public eye about it. he's honestly not making these works for us, he's doing it for his own satisfaction, to see what kind of character development can come out of him, to see what he can learn, to see how far he can push himself. so i think it pains him greatly to have to force himself to be "upbeat" and "sociable" on shows and interviews.
secondly, he has an alter ego. he's an extreme introvert but can force himself to appear extroverted for the sake of tv. truly at his bones he doesn't want to be perceived at all. he wants to be invisible. he knows he was born talented and goodlooking but wants to hide. which is why i think he actively nerfs his own self image bc he honestly doesn't want to be looked at. but ironically he's so good at acting that he has to be put in the spotlight. so he can, for that time being, switch modes.
but did you know almost every celebrity and athlete has something similar and talks about that? their alter ego? that they're able to channel their alter ego but once they come off that stage they go back to their own selves? i think jihoon has his alter ego that he uses for filming and stages and fan interactions. it doesn't make him fake or calculated. in fact there is an ENTIRE self help industry about bypassing your own limitations by creating and using an alter ego, and i think jihoon has done something similar. i mean, jihoon even has distinct names for all his alter egos like ๋ฐ๋ง๊ผฌ, AR, ์๋ถ์ฅ๋, ์์ต, ์๊น ์ด, etc. yeah they're his "nicknames" but they all have a distinct persona and he uses them as needed.
his current condition- i think he is much more stressed and under pressure than he admits. of course everyone knows it and assumes it even though he denies it. but he has definitely felt a little bit off ever since wangsanam exploded in popularity. he really doesn't know what to do with himself. he badly wishes to just do what he usually does with his usual fans, but newer fans or returning fans are expecting too much out of him. he is absolutely tearing his fingers apart from anxiety which makes me so so so sad to watch and i think he's disassociating a lot more than usual in order to make it through this period in his life. which is why even though he's going through the actions it may feel off.
also when did hi bye events turn into such a zoo? he's literally performing hundreds of requests in the blink of an eye, that is not normal nor should it be expected of him. he's being used as a machine, not enjoyed with as your favorite bias. no wonder he feels like a robot. because he literally is one.
newer or returning fans need to learn more about jihoon before harping on what the job of an "idol" is. sorry but he doesn't careeeeee and he's not going to change for you! accept him as is and love him or move on!
#parkjihoon #๋ฐ์งํ
i find it weird that director jang saw jihoon at his lowest, nearly passing out every day due to not eating, his body was REJECTING food, and yet jang wants jihoon to lose more weight??? what???