[260401] weverse dm ๐ฐ๐ฌ
๐ฐ surprise news
๐ฐ the cebu trip vlog is going to be uploaded today
๐ฐthey edited it really fast, iโm grateful
๐ฐ um? itโs not an april fools prank
๐ฐ why are you being like this hahahaha
๐ฐ i diligently filmed whenever i could
๐ฐ so enjoy watching it
๐ค was that the first time just the two of you drank together?
๐ฐ it wasnโt the first time butโฆ
๐ฆ i think it was after a really long time
๐ฐ yeah, we always drink together when we fight and make upโฆand thatโs not something thatโs happened just once or twice!
๐ฐ iโm someone that needs to resolve things as soon as they happen and yeonjun hyung is someone you need to give some time to so thatโs a reason we had a hard time with each otherโฆevery time after something happened, i would try to avoid yeonjun hyung being like โlet me give yeonjun hyung some time like he wants!โ but he needs too much time
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๐ฐ even when i gave him half a yearโs time, he was still not readyโฆhe was still not ready to have a conversation
๐ฐ so something i always said was โhyung, if something like this happens, i hope you learn a way to come approach me first tooโฆsince iโm the one always coming to you first, i canโt help but feel upsetโ and then for the first time in the 10 years weโve known each other, yeonjun hyung requested to have the conversation first
๐ฐ as soon as he contacted me, i was like โdid i do something wrong..?โ
๐ฐfor those two days, i was reallyโฆ
๐ค were you anxious?
๐ฐ yeah, before bed iโd keep digging into the past and think things like โdid i talk about yeonjun hyung behind his back somewhere..?โ
๐ฆ you thought about all that? ๐
๐ฐ i was really worriedโฆbut it was for him to spill his feelings to me openly so i felt great
๐ฆ i finished wrapping up first my solo recently and as words from people around me started influencing me, it really stressed me out and it really started swaying my identity as a personโฆi was really burnt out for 3 months
๐ฆ i used to be someone that told people everything when i was going through a hard time like โiโm going through a tough time right nowโ but i donโt know when it started, but i couldnโt get myself to tell people around me anymore
๐ค i wonder why? was it out of consideration for them?
๐ฆ that could be whyโฆand i also felt like i needed to learn how to overcome things myself
๐ฆ i didnโt say anything to anyone and was going through it myselfโฆthen i thought about namjoon hyung so i went to him and asked him a lot of questions and one of the things he said to me was that he hopes i face the things that make me uncomfortable
๐ฆ i had conflicts with soobin and we had awkward phases but i wanted to erase all of these things one by one and i feel like there were also a lot of things that i had been misunderstanding, coming to think of it nowโฆso i went up to soobin first and said โhey, letโs go get a drinkโ
๐ฐ yeonjun hyung said it himself but he was someone who really tried to not talk about himselfโฆhe never wanted to burden other people and always wanted to resolve things alone but he makes those things really obvious
๐ฆ (joking) heโs the worst ๐คฃ
๐ฐ you can just look at him and tell that heโs having the hardest time ever but if i ask him โhyung, are you okay?โ, heโll be like โiโm okay, iโm okayโ so that reallyโฆupset me back then. if i approached him to have a conversation, heโd just try to hide everything as much as he could. it kinda felt likeโฆhe was building a wall around him.
๐ฐ when we drank together that day, he spilled all his inner feelings in a very honest way to me, for the first time in years.
๐ฐ so i cried that day
๐ฆ he did
๐ค while you guys were talking?
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๐ค why? what made you cry?
๐ฐ i was just listening to him and the tears suddenly started pouring
๐ฆ i saw him cry after a really long time
๐ฐ itโs becauseโฆitโs someone i have a lot of affection and care for andโฆyeonjun hyung was going through a hard time and it felt like he was in the process of becoming a better person so i think that made me feel really nice
โญ๏ธ i listened to this song as soon as i woke up. it made me feel great. itโs really calming and it feels like my anxiety will disappear. it feels like a treasure that taehyun could participate in this collab. i love taehyunโs voice so much.
๐ฟ๏ธ๐ฑ the song is good, isnโt it?
๐ฟ๏ธ๐ฑ i recorded it a really long time ago so i forgot about it for a bit and then listened to the mastered version again and it was great