Still Alive - Jonathan Coulton 🕷

Twitter's #1 Most Dangerous Schizo. Local organizer helping people abandon survivors since 2020.

[Still Alive - Jonathan Coulton 🕷 @jiugae_]

cracking jokes about FBI surveillance really does hit differently when u have schizophrenia

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between the two of us, i'm hoping we can check each other's unhinged tendencies and hopefully make up one (1) normal human being

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me and co-leader have wildly different approaches towards understanding abusive behaviors so it's interesting when the two of us end up talking about it bc we focus on different things

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co-leader: if people are serious about rehabilitating abusers, it would require being compassionate towards them/their past traumas instead of relying on shame as a motivator
me: here's an idea for rehabilitation, why don't we just [redacted] them

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all you miserable fucks can suck my dick <3

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feeling my blood pressure shoot up as i think about the piece of shit ex mutuals who harassed me bc i needed to be "held accountable" lol

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this is not a bad problem to have tho. this feels good. healthy, even.

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the downsides of being busy irl is that even though i do want to put effort into getting over twitter trauma i get distracted doing shit like "spend entire week hanging with friend"

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me: i am going to spend some time today cleaning following, as per exposure therapy schedule
also me: *drives to friend's house and stays there until 12am doing dumb shit*

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AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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Holy Fucking SHIT LMFAOOOO

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Men are abusive bc of patriarchy, women use violence as a reaction. I'm sorry but this is garbage. where does abusive women factor into this. what about abusive lesbian relationships.

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Barely started reading about the Duluth Model used for rehabilitating abusive men and already I hate it lol

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This is not me saying i want anything to do with my ex-mutuals, idc what our relationship used to be, if i ever see them irl i'm going to try and **** ***. But the fact that you are just supposed to accept the damage as damage and there's nothing u can do about it? Big dislike

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i have this vague memory of someone i knew who was targeted by a narcissistic abuser who abused them and falsely accused them of abuse and basically destroyed their relationships. they actually reached out to their old friends to explain the situation when they were safe

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reconciliation isn't always possible, but it also kind of feels like if a narcissistic abuser can just waltz in and fuck shit up and would u look at that, there's nothing u can do but cut and run, it feels like they won and i don't like that

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i love reading. when i'm angry, when I'm grieving, when i have a problem i want to solve, i turn to books and there's always an answer bc my issues aren't unique and have been explored by someone else before.

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pre-2020 me would have accepted it. that was basically what i did the last couple times i tangled with narcissistic abusers onhere. I'm kind of sick of doing this though. I want to be on the offensive this time and put those bastards and their enables in the corner.

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Doing some reading about Restorative Justice

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a lot of my interest in this topic specifically has to do with how all the resources I've seen about what ur options are re: narcissistic abusers destroying relationships/communities, which goes like, there's nothing you can do, cut ur losses and move on