jeys

dark. dry. dense. delusional.

[jeys @jllyjace]

From fat fuck to hot fuck real quick. On one hand: nakakaproud. Good job self.

On the other hand: i better hope for my introverted self's sake that i wont even have to explain the weight loss on the event na i need to use the umid for all things adulting lmao.

[Alikaneki @Alikaneki_]

Working on Higuruma and nanami. Here’s a rough. Almost done with the next minute of Choso/naoya 🫡 #higuruma #nanami #jjk

[Anish Moonka @anishmoonka]

The actual research is wild. Every time you push down a feeling, your brain has to choose between suppressing that emotion and recording what’s happening around you. It picks the suppression. The memory doesn’t get saved.

A 2000 Stanford study confirmed this: people told to hide their emotions while watching a film remembered far fewer details than people who just reacted naturally. Suppressing emotions uses up mental energy, and that leaves less brain power for saving new memories.

Brain scans show why. A 2012 study found that suppression quiets the hippocampus (your brain’s memory-recording center) right when it should be saving information. The two brain regions that normally team up to lock in memories stop talking to each other.

Over time it gets worse. Suppression keeps cortisol (the stress hormone) elevated, and cortisol shrinks the hippocampus. Chronically stressed people can lose 10 to 15% of its volume. Just three weeks of high cortisol can shrink the tiny connection points between brain cells by about 20%. The good news: studies show this shrinkage can partially reverse once stress levels drop. Not necessarily permanent.

A Finnish study of 1,137 older adults tracked over roughly a decade found that habitual emotion suppressors had nearly 5x the risk of developing dementia, even after controlling for genetics, smoking, obesity, and education.

There’s a better way to handle emotions that doesn’t cost you your memory. It’s called cognitive reappraisal: instead of bottling the feeling, you reframe what’s causing it. (“This meeting isn’t a threat, it’s practice.”) A 2003 Stanford/UC Berkeley study found reappraisers had more positive emotion, better relationships, and higher wellbeing. Suppressors got the opposite on every measure. And reappraisal carries zero memory cost.

The difference comes down to timing. Suppression kicks in after the emotion has already fired, so your brain is fighting its own response while simultaneously trying to record the moment. Reappraisal changes how you interpret the situation before the emotion fully activates. Same event, same person, but your hippocampus stays free to do its actual job: recording your life.

[jeys @jllyjace]

My survival arc will conclude in death — methaphorically or literally.

[jeys @jllyjace]

- Had to file an indefinite loa sa pup october of 2019. I remember deliberately processing it while my blocmates were on class. I cant bring myself to say goodbye in person.

- worked at kolsenner 1. When i sense i'm going to get some composure pandemic happened

See comsec

[✧ @cessonmute]

give me your survival arc

[jeys @jllyjace]

Either i'll see the light at the end of the tunnel or die and drown into the depths. I'm running out of fight in me sooooo

[jeys @jllyjace]

Debt became 6 digits. Now — toxic ang company pero di na makaalis dahil need magbayad. Never nag past due pero the past couple years have been really unkind to me except sa lablayp

[jeys @jllyjace]

Come 2022 nastroke ang tyuhin. Since walang mapaghuhugutan got into debt once more.

Resigned sa next company kasi toxic ang management. When i was about to start sa kolsenner 2 (where i currently work at) namatay ang tyuhin ko

[jeys @jllyjace]

- got into debt during pandemic to cover expenses. When i was finally earning good. 2021 namatay yung lola ko. I financed the entire thing.

- not even halfway done with my debt pero i resigned sa kolsenner 1 for lighter workload. Struggled really hard sa process

[jeys @jllyjace]

5 years in, and yes, I am still bitter and resentful towards how my 2019 and 2020 turned out.

[jeys @jllyjace]

Live unseen footage of the balete drive lady luring drivers at night:

#rp612fic

[Macu 🌸🏳️‍🌈❤️💚💙 @MacuNars]

tandaan ang mga mukha ng mga AGREE
#ImpeachSaraDuterteNOW

[Karen Davila @iamkarendavila]

Pag gusto may paraan, pag ayaw may dahilan.

[SALEM ☆ !! php arc @xannyrexic]

suicidal in my 20s is crazy i should’ve killed myself when i was 13

[jeys @jllyjace]

Denise Julia when BJ's getting dragged for dating a 19-year old

[📂 @ayosarchives]

rupaul/drag queen saying "aha this is it! this is it. i finally got that bitch" while typing on a computer

[jeys @jllyjace]

HALA SI ANTE

[jeys @jllyjace]

Might be recency bias or maybe my version is trying to tell me something

[feyisayo 💸 @feyiszn]

i tolerate people & things until i’m very much resentful towards them